In search of nonlinear time

The past is present now, impacting our future in ways we're unaware of

She’s aliiiiive. And casually posing for a photo in her living room then writing about it in third person online, as one does.

Hey there. I wanted to let you know that I have paused paid subscriptions here for the foreseeable future. I deeply appreciate every single one of you and value your hard-earned money but, given that I haven't been posting as much lately, it felt only right to ensure you aren't charged when I'm not writing regularly. It stresses me out to know people are paying when I’m not posting.

I've taken a bit of a break from social media, am just really trying to experience life in ways I remember before the internet took over living. And, lately, who needs another person online writing things at you?

Still, I have so much to write about if I can ever find the time. In fact, the construct of time itself and how we experience it has been on my mind a lot lately, and I plan to write about it soon; how I’m trying to experience it vertically instead of horizontally. Or deeply instead of linearly? Is linearly a word? It feels made up.

"There isn't time - so brief is life - for bickerings, apologies, heartburnings, callings to account. There is only time for loving - & but an instant, so to speak, for that.”- Mark Twain

Anyway, I’m not going anywhere. Still here and wish I could write here all the time. Work and parenting are devouring all of my linear minutes but I wanted to say hello! I’m still here! I feel super uncomfortable continuing to take anyone’s money when I haven’t posted as much as I’d like! I will, of course, let you know when (if?) I plan to unpause paid subscriptions.

Hope you’re all hanging in there regardless of your politics. I am finding it a good time to pause, reflect, listen and observe. It’s a weird time, to be sure. A lot of people have a lot to say. But kindness always wins. In an age of mis/dis information and splintered reality, I know this much is true.

Time is a flat circle, said Nietzsche. This is worth pondering in conjunction with the notion of seeking meaning through conflict and struggle. Make your life into something you want to relive an infinite number of times.

“Every act of creation is first an act of destruction.” - Pablo Picasso

With endless gratitude and love,