This post made me so happy. You look happy. I relate so much because at 45 I began training as a counsellor. If I could afford it I would have therapy still… I too was raised in chaos, carving out my own safe spaces and love. It left me a people pleaser - with a shaky sense of self with a massive external locus of evaluation. But time, a family, and the course helped me see myself too. I still react when stressed or fearful. Like a Russian doll - I still carry those other Suzannes inside me… It took me to the same age to work out we can only control ourselves. I still try to control - worrying about my son’s grades - will he get to Uni? Etc. I still need tidy all the time as tidy was what I could control as a kid. But I forgive myself. Just have you have done with you. You really do have the best years ahead. The fearless years. Well done to you. Lastly, it’s a lifelong journey getting to know ourselves. Wish you were closer x
I love your stardust sharing energy. I’ve read you since the very very beginning and I’m so happy to read about your life now.
A good therapist is life changing. I have mine also who helped me look at the world objectively instead of fearfully. Mine uses EMDR in various ways and it was too much for me with the lights though I want to get back to it. It puts you right in your trauma and your soul bursts through. There are lights, but the vibrating things in your hands are what worked for me so far.
Just out of curiosity, did you do DBT?
This made me cry. I LYSM. And him for helping bring you back to you. ❤️
This post made me so happy. You look happy. I relate so much because at 45 I began training as a counsellor. If I could afford it I would have therapy still… I too was raised in chaos, carving out my own safe spaces and love. It left me a people pleaser - with a shaky sense of self with a massive external locus of evaluation. But time, a family, and the course helped me see myself too. I still react when stressed or fearful. Like a Russian doll - I still carry those other Suzannes inside me… It took me to the same age to work out we can only control ourselves. I still try to control - worrying about my son’s grades - will he get to Uni? Etc. I still need tidy all the time as tidy was what I could control as a kid. But I forgive myself. Just have you have done with you. You really do have the best years ahead. The fearless years. Well done to you. Lastly, it’s a lifelong journey getting to know ourselves. Wish you were closer x
I’m so happy for you! The right therapist and the courage to do the work can be so life-changing. You clearly had both. ❤️
I’m so happy you have found your peace 🤍
I love your stardust sharing energy. I’ve read you since the very very beginning and I’m so happy to read about your life now.
A good therapist is life changing. I have mine also who helped me look at the world objectively instead of fearfully. Mine uses EMDR in various ways and it was too much for me with the lights though I want to get back to it. It puts you right in your trauma and your soul bursts through. There are lights, but the vibrating things in your hands are what worked for me so far.