Gosh you are brave. I loved reading this. I have flickers of this too - I remember once writing a blog post about feeling a black hole inside me and it took a reader to advise me I was depressed. I loved reading it because it’s so raw and honest. Being vulnerable is the most beautiful way to say to others - it’s ok, I feel like this too. Re wanting to reach out to ex’s etc. You are right - they have changed and so have you. Let it go. I’ve just let go of a 41 year friendship. So close she felt like a sister. But we grew apart and changed radically and it was oil and water. No longer could bear each other. I grieve what we were, my bridesmaid and once godmother to my kids, but I know that it no longer serves me to have her in my life. That she triggered so much in me. That the roles she wanted me to keep - I no longer fitted… I had changed. So have you. And you sound more at peace than ever before x
Wow I really love every word you said. I kept waiting for the part where you would say how you got to this new place mentally of loving yourself just as you are, loving life, not being antisocial, all of it. After the diagnosis, wondering how you got to such a positive, peaceful place. Not perfect, but better and happier. ♥️
My 25 year-old was diagnosed a few years ago and we are currently estranged. I found this post very enlightening. I've been digging deep to uncover myself recently and see how it all connects.
Gosh you are brave. I loved reading this. I have flickers of this too - I remember once writing a blog post about feeling a black hole inside me and it took a reader to advise me I was depressed. I loved reading it because it’s so raw and honest. Being vulnerable is the most beautiful way to say to others - it’s ok, I feel like this too. Re wanting to reach out to ex’s etc. You are right - they have changed and so have you. Let it go. I’ve just let go of a 41 year friendship. So close she felt like a sister. But we grew apart and changed radically and it was oil and water. No longer could bear each other. I grieve what we were, my bridesmaid and once godmother to my kids, but I know that it no longer serves me to have her in my life. That she triggered so much in me. That the roles she wanted me to keep - I no longer fitted… I had changed. So have you. And you sound more at peace than ever before x
Wow I really love every word you said. I kept waiting for the part where you would say how you got to this new place mentally of loving yourself just as you are, loving life, not being antisocial, all of it. After the diagnosis, wondering how you got to such a positive, peaceful place. Not perfect, but better and happier. ♥️
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Your vulnerability is inspiring and keeps me motivated to continue to dig deeper in my own work -- both writing and inner life stuff. Keep it comin'!
My 25 year-old was diagnosed a few years ago and we are currently estranged. I found this post very enlightening. I've been digging deep to uncover myself recently and see how it all connects.